Welp, here I am sitting home. This is day 47 post car accident. Had this been Jennifer of yesteryear I would be anxious, irritated, worried, and most likely angry. Why angry, you ask because I have always been a mover and shaker. If I had an odometer on my back, or better yet if I received frequent mover miles I could travel the entire world thrice and never pay a dime. I have often characterized my life soundtrack as being the theme song from the Benny Hill show. https://youtu.be/r9RUoExrTsg When that intro played his movements were 4 times the speed of the average person. I have always been told that I need to slow down and learn to take life slower and easier. However in my mind, the actual control domain of my mind, it always dictated that I needed to maximize every moment in everyday.
Fast forward to 2017, I finally recognize that God had been trying to get my attention big time this year. Initially, I thought that I could ignore His call, but He has shown me otherwise. Within this year I have had strep throat three times, when no one else had it. I sprained my heel rendering me on crutches and an orthopedic boot for 5 weeks. Then after a self-examination of my breast I found a LUMP, thankfully the results of the biopsy were good. Then on August 30 I was struck by another vehicle while driving my vehicle on the parkway. This accident caused me to have injuries that require physical therapy weekly, orthopedic care with a cortisone shot, and now a neurological visit to checkout why for the first time in my life I suffered through a two day migraine episode. Suffice to say my little life as I knew it came to a screeching halt. Long gone are my mornings rushing to get the children and I out of the house to go to our designated spaces. Here is a shocker, I DO NOT MISS THAT JENNIFER OF YESTERYEAR, quite frankly she wore me out!
Now I usher my children out the house in the mornings knowing that I can come back home, prepare breakfast, wash clothes, fold clothes, clean the bedrooms, sweep and mop the floors, wipe the walls OR get back in my bed and do nothing! Never in my adult life have I had a reprieve from work that was not a scheduled absence i.e.-vacation, training, seminar etc. I have not been home with the little people I helped to create since they were 6 weeks old, I have always paid someone else to do it. I am totally grateful for the Jennifer of yesteryear, without her I could not wholeheartedly appreciate the Jennifer of today. The more patient Jennifer, the more relaxed Jennifer, the pleasant wife Jennifer, the playful mom Jennifer.
This is a new journey, and my current objective is to HEAL- mind, body, soul, spirit, and discover God’s plan for my life. I will work to reinvent/redesign a life that I can stop and smell the roses, while I actively engage in the power of NOW! Sit down NOW, lay down NOW, rest NOW, slowdown NOW, and pray NOW!
I think I can truly learn to enjoy this unexpected life!
If you can relate to this article, share it and leave me a note so that I know I am not alone.
Stay beautiful,
J
Faith Over Fear 